STATEMENT 3/12/2024 18:49 EDT

Another day, another roundup! I wanted to do these monthly “roundups” to summarize what I’ve done in the past month, and what I intend to do over the next month. I’ve never made something like this before, so please forgive any mistakes. Also I will try to make these every month, so if I don’t it likely means one of three things: One, I forgot; Two, I didn’t make it in time; Or three, I decided to stop. FYI, this is mainly a way for me to check in with myself overtime as I will be covering real life topics as well, so keep that in mind if reading anything in this subseries.

Starting in February, I started with making a YouTube video for the first time in months. After uploading it, I realized that I still enjoy making videos. Since then, I’ve been making random videos and YouTube Shorts of varying degrees of quality. I feel the worst ones are the shorts of me just shaking a Magic 8 Ball (and sadly they get the most views). Out of the video’s I’m most proud of so far is the Yakko’s World Edit. That one was the most fun edit! I hope I can find something else to do though, maybe I’ll do an IRL thing, I don’t know, have to figure that out. :D

I’ve been trying to find a place to call my home on the Social Media sphere of the internet ever since Elon overtook Twitter back in Oct 2022. Ever since that day, I’ve felt I haven’t had a place to call home on the internet in general because I felt like Twitter was like a digital home to me ever since I joined the platform in 2019 [on a now-deleted account]. But after the platform was rebranded to “X”, my time on Twitter drastically dropped until in October ‘23, I all but stopped using it. I do come back sometimes but not to the extent I did before the rebrand. I’ve been using DeviantART even before Musk took over Twitter and I even got onto Bluesky in December, but they just don’t feel the same, but also I don’t want to go back to Twitter anytime soon.

Real Life stuff here:

I got myself a job at [Redacted] in February! I had a summer job during Summer vacation [‘Cause I still go to School], and ever since the day it ended I’ve been wanting to get another job again. But something I learned very quickly was it was not going to be easy. I’m not a social person, so it’s hard for me to talk to others and hold a conversation for a long time, so that was just one reason why it was hard to get one. Another thing was everytime I applied for a job, they would never get back to me. I would’ve called the employer, but my Social Anxiety got the better of me. Come January [I’d been on the job search for 3 1 ⁄ 2 months btw], I applied at a McDonald’s location, and I even got an interview, but they rejected me around 3 weeks later. But likely I got an interview for my now-place of employment late last month and got hired very quickly. 

I feel like School is starting to really weigh me down lately. I’m a senior in High School and everyone told me when I was younger “Seniors are just waiting ‘till Graduation,” “Senior year’s a breeze!” For me it is not a breeze. I always owe a lot of School work and this years it’s getting pretty bad. I missed a lot of days of School last month and missed a lot of huge assignments. I’m really behind and I have a lot of things in my life to balance: Me, School, and Work. I’m not very good at balancing all these things right now so I’m not really having a good time at the moment. I hope that I can find a solution to this because if I don’t, it’s only gonna get worse for me.

Final Thoughts:

Well I want to thank you for reading this, I don’t usually write essays like this so if you for some reason read all of this, thank you. Maybe I’ll do this again or write the comment section of a YouTube video. Again, thank you for reading, and have a good day.

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