November 2024 Recap

So here we are, we got one more month left in this year (I’m making bingo cards for next year already). I didn’t make a Recap for October, so I’ll cover both October and November at the same time. I just want to state first, I’m in a little bit of a better mental state than my last post as I’ve made some decisions I’m confident with. But let’s start this going from Old to new.

Starting in Early October, I started a diet. I wanted to lose about 80 pounds so I can be more healthy. I’ve been overweight my whole life and I’m finally addressing it. My first weigh-in was 283 lbs, and as of Nov 28, I’m at 257 lbs. Although that’s prolly shot up from Thanksgiving. I’m also (attempting) to add more exercise in my life, but it’s getting difficult as I keep straining muscles and getting blisters. Another change I made was starting to eat right. I used to eat over 5000 calories a day, now it’s about 1500 calories a day. Also I’m swapping out Ultra-processed foods with healthy foods like Spinach (I tried spinach for the first time and I’ve been liking it more and more over time). I’ve been losing about 13 pounds each month so far. If i keep with this I should be under 250 by the middle of December (huge mental goal for me)!

So with College, I’m not going back after this semester is over. I would drop out now, but I’d owe the School over $4000, and I don’t exactly have that amount. I did drop some classes so I have a small amount that I can finish out with. I’m job hunting as of now, so I can hope to have a job after the semester is over.

I turned 18 last month. But it didn’t feel special. Every year, more and more I feel sidelined because my twin brother is the more popular of us in the household. My mother is usually the only one that even says “Happy Birthday” to me anymore. I had a breakdown because it just doesn’t excite me anymore. I even started just saying “[Brother’s name]’s Birthday”, leaving out my name when saying it. The part that hurt the most was none of my friends even wished me a happy birthday, it made me question if they even wanted to be around me, as they hadn't even messaged me for weeks to months (i ended a few DM’s and left some group chats that were dead). Maybe I can make some internet friends soon, but it’s unlikely ‘cause my social skills aren’t very different on the internet as they are in real life (bad).

I’ve been wanting to try my hand at music for a long time. and starting at the beginning of November, I actually started making music. Just to keep me going, the goal is to make a 12 track album. If I don’t finish it, that’ll be a huge blow to me mentally. But I’m very confident I’ll be able to do it, and make songs that are very personal to me (I cried while making an instrumental yesterday), no matter how long it takes me, even if it’s months). I’m thinking of releasing a joke single titled The Placeholder Song. I switched from using an Out of tune Guitar we had in the house to using Garageband, so I have to remake the instrumental before even thinking of releasing it! Expect very few updates on this “Album” as it’s just a side hustle for me. If I release something It’ll either be a silent drop, or a “hey releasing this tomorrow.”

I made a full switch from Twitter (twitter.com/gamerisboring) to Bluesky (bsky.app/profile/gamerisboring.com) because all I was seeing for months was Politics and other hate content (I went on Twitter to see art from artists I like), but I’ll be honest, I don’t really like being on ANY social media anymore. I’ve drastically cut my time on YouTube because I don’t like what’s being served anymore, so I moved to watching movies and Shows on Netflix (and maybe Hulu in the future). Also over time I’ve been consolidating my Social media presence over the last month. I went from about 10 to just 4 in that time. In terms of Personal posts, they’re all still here. This website is truly my personal space on the internet.

Thank you for reading. Whoever’s out there, I appreciate you reading my entries. It makes me feel less alone. I hope to write back on Christmas so see the next Recap then! Bye bye.

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