Monthly Update July 2024

Hey. I haven’t made one of these in a while. I’ve been spending a lot more time in real life than on the internet lately as of late, which is probably for the best in regards to my mental health (which is very poor). This website, it’s like my digital home more than anything. it’s the place i feel the most comfortable at whenever i’m down. it’s like the kitchen table when i have something on my mind, although here, i can actually say it. It’s like a storage place where i can store my files but with the share mode to be where anyone can download and take them for themselves. Lastly, it’s my place to shout out all my feelings into the void, something i wish i could do with somebody in real life. I want to cover myself first, different from how i usually do this.

A little over a month ago, I graduated High School. I never know how to properly use positive emotions, so for most of it while i was happy, i was uncertain of the future. i also was sad because all my friends were not seniors, they were one grade below as juniors. also my brother wasn’t graduating with me either, he failed everything. a lot of the speeches that people gave were about failure. yes an odd thing to talk about at a place to celebrate peoples success, but they talked about how you have to fail, to succeed. one speech was about how we should move at the speed of human; how everything and everyone is moving so quickly and that we should move and do everything at the speed of human. when the graduation ended i actually couldn’t find my family. the venue they used for the graduation was huge to where i couldn’t find them. they found me first and they told me how i kept walking past them without knowing they were there. Along with my Diploma, I got a Seal of Civic Readiness, and a Certificate of Merit.

At my job, I’ve gotten a lot better with strain in my legs from standing for long periods of time. Obviously walking would be way better, but as a regular cashier i don’t get that option. I’ve also been working a lot more. Last week I worked a 26hr work week. I would’ve also had a 31hr work week next week, but they cut it to 19hr’s as of writing today (which was a huge blow). Also i’ve grown to people really being huge a**holes. One guy was getting things from a buy-one-get-one-free sale we had, but it didn’t show up on the screen, and we only noticed it as i was giving him his change. he blew a huge fit like a whiny toddler that had their iPad taken away from them and demanded that i refund them (which i didn’t have the power to do) or he would call the police. i had initially asked him to go to customer service to remedy the situation, but he decided he would hold up my entire line (which had 8 people in it) until he got his way. i had to call my manager over (who was running their own line; so he held up two lines) to get the guy a refund and he painting me as a incompetent idiot who didn’t know how to do his job. it didn’t surprise me that that guy was from the south.

There is one thing i’ve picked up on in the past few months and that is Bowling! I, LOVE, to bowl. It’s the highlight of my week at this point. When I started out i was only bowling about 55-60, and now i’m regularly bowling over 115! My current best game is a 149. I still struggle with making spares. I should probably get a spare ball, but i’ve already sunk a lot of money for my one bowling ball ($139) and supplies to maintain it. I’ve also noticed via the oil pattern that the finger hole always hit the bowling floor which prolly isn’t a good thing. I’ve also bowled with friends and family and I’ve even beaten my cousin who is insanely good at bowling. I go once a week and i’ve been really getting good lately.

A few days ago my friend texted in our friend server that he was trying to beat a real time fnaf mod – which basically it was fnaf but in real time – and that basically sent me down a fnaf nostalgia rabbit hole lately, and yes i did tell him that.

i think i’ve shouted as much as i want to shout out for today. thank you for reading. same time next month?

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